New Year Resolutions

It's 2013! Time really flies. Just as everyone else, I've been eating and celebrating the holidays and made some resolutions:

1. Finish my book. You might laugh but I'm actually really close. I might finish it in January or February latest. Only a few chapters are left and I want to start correncting all the bullshit I wrote. I'm afraid it's part of the process.
2. Sports! My sport level rose during 2012 and I'm proud of that but it's still not continuous - sometimes I'm not doing anything for a whole week and then the next week I'm making sport everyday. I have to get some rhythm in that.
3. Do something about the anger. I think I have a lot of unresolved anger in me and that's why I can't stand people. We always start out nice but after a while (usually 1 1/2 to 2 years) I'm so pissed off. I just can't unsee all the little bad habbits, that everyone has. I for sure am not perfect. No one is. But it's driving me INSANE! I have to learn to take people the way they are and stay calm about it. We have to accept, what we can't change.
4. Study harder. I really have to! I made a good start during the holidays and I want to keep it that way. I hate to sit in class and  tohave no idea, what that guy is talking about. Or who he actually is. And what class am I talking exactly?
5. Keep reading, you missed it so much!
6. Work harder in Renai? I guess? I don't know, I'm already working really hard on that...
7. Keep on improving your voice. It's gonna be alright.
8. Clean your room more oft... ah... naa.... not gonna happen.
9. Eat more fibers.
10. Blog more. Like seriously. I'm not using this blog anymore and I' missing it to write in English. Lately, I'm always here: http://sweets-spirits.blogspot.de/ where I blog in German about books and food and everything that doesn't include me, posting pictures of myself. I really started hating that.

So yeah, those are my resolution and I hope I can keep a few of them... hey, I'm realistic.
Finally, I'd like to show you a flyer I made today about our next Renai Revolution concert. It's going to be a graduation special.

University Start and KONEKO

As I've told you before, Monday was my very first university day.

The last two days were so damn exhausting, I haven't had any time to blog - all my freetime went to creating a schedule, finding the right paths and not losing my mind.

It's SO confusing ... when I'm looking at the past two days, I just want to quit the shit ... but whatelse should I do?? I have to get a grip of my life, right? Can't keep on being a baby forever... damn it. T_T

So on Monday, I went to the first events, where they welcome you, give you some presents (a fancy fabric bag and other stuff) and try to take your fears ... which they really suck at.
Then, right afterwards, I had my first actvities in history, met some new people and a girl I hang out with the day ... sometimes I can't believe how easy it is to get to know people ... or maybe that's just me.

They tried to explain the schedule to us ... in German universities, for most subjects, you have to create you own schedule from scratch. Some (like physics or buisness studies) get finished schedules but I didn't. I have to check what I can do and check my study points and what to do when and how much of it and get signaturs and yeah, basically I hate everything about it. Maybe studying wasn't the right thing to do after all.

Well, I'm going to hang on for at least one year and if I'm still hating it, I have to look for something else to do with my life.

But now to something nice!!!

Today was the release of Koneko, a European magazine, that me and my group Renai Revolution are in! I've already bought it haha.

Bitte kauft euch die Koneko! Damit unterstützt ihr nicht nur Renai Revolution, ihr habt auch die Chance, bis zu 3 Kleider zu gewinnen!
Andernfalls, geht einfach auf diesen Link, dort erfahrt ihr auch die Teilnahmebedinungen:

http://girls.subarashi.de/2011/10/koneko-subarashi-gewinnspiel-sexy-boy/

I also got a book, I've ordered a while ago!

I'm really happy about it, because Aoki Misako is really one of my favourite Lolita models!
Unfortunately my friend Laureen received the same book shortly after and I could have borrowed it! T_T

Renai Birthday and University fears

As I've told you before, on Thursday was my group's birthday and yesterday we all went to celebrate.
Well ... sadly not all, two couldn't make it.

Gena, Laureen and I went together, because we've spend the afternoon with sewing ... or rather Gena, who actually knows what she's doing, tried to beat some skills into us ... sorry for being bothersome!

Like last year, we went to Ishin restaurant, because it's good and not too expensive!
Haaa... and it was GOOD!

All in all, we were Gena, Giny, Nikki, Mina, Laureen and I. Nice group of 6 people.


But a bigger problem is on its way. Tomorrow I'm enrolling in university and I'm really scared!!
Not if people will be nice and such.

I'm continuously asking myself: "Was it the right decision?" "Should I've chosen an apprenticeship?" "Am I studying the right subjects?" "Can I handle the work?" "Can I make it in 3 years?" "Do I actually know how to learn after over 3 years?" "Will I be successfull?" "Am I ruining my damn life?!"

I am so scared ... I've had so much time and still I can't believe, it's already tomorrow. Time really flies in the blink of an eye.

I hope, I can finally be happy...

Great Week!

This week ... is so ... AWESOME!!!

I don't know why, but this week there were so many great things happening to me. I'm so happy.

First, I was in in Disney World, which is enough happiness for a whole month.

When I came home, I got to know that I can go to Humboldt University ... I already took this spot, it was my dream.

Then, they told me, my grandma's fine ... she was really sick, when I left, but she's good know. Thank God.

Today I got a mail, I got first place in Closet Voyage giveaway. I can't remember, I ever won something, so this is great. Thank you!! I only got to know about this giveaway thanks to my friend Laureen, so I think I'll share a bit. :)

My boss from subarashi also had some great news, that I can't talk about yet.

So yes ... yesterday I came back from my vacation and I'll be posting about it soon. It was really great.