New Year Resolutions

It's 2013! Time really flies. Just as everyone else, I've been eating and celebrating the holidays and made some resolutions:

1. Finish my book. You might laugh but I'm actually really close. I might finish it in January or February latest. Only a few chapters are left and I want to start correncting all the bullshit I wrote. I'm afraid it's part of the process.
2. Sports! My sport level rose during 2012 and I'm proud of that but it's still not continuous - sometimes I'm not doing anything for a whole week and then the next week I'm making sport everyday. I have to get some rhythm in that.
3. Do something about the anger. I think I have a lot of unresolved anger in me and that's why I can't stand people. We always start out nice but after a while (usually 1 1/2 to 2 years) I'm so pissed off. I just can't unsee all the little bad habbits, that everyone has. I for sure am not perfect. No one is. But it's driving me INSANE! I have to learn to take people the way they are and stay calm about it. We have to accept, what we can't change.
4. Study harder. I really have to! I made a good start during the holidays and I want to keep it that way. I hate to sit in class and  tohave no idea, what that guy is talking about. Or who he actually is. And what class am I talking exactly?
5. Keep reading, you missed it so much!
6. Work harder in Renai? I guess? I don't know, I'm already working really hard on that...
7. Keep on improving your voice. It's gonna be alright.
8. Clean your room more oft... ah... naa.... not gonna happen.
9. Eat more fibers.
10. Blog more. Like seriously. I'm not using this blog anymore and I' missing it to write in English. Lately, I'm always here: http://sweets-spirits.blogspot.de/ where I blog in German about books and food and everything that doesn't include me, posting pictures of myself. I really started hating that.

So yeah, those are my resolution and I hope I can keep a few of them... hey, I'm realistic.
Finally, I'd like to show you a flyer I made today about our next Renai Revolution concert. It's going to be a graduation special.

hisashiburi

Helloooou ... people. It's been a while. I haven't blogged for almost 3 months, because some things happened and I needed to keep quiet. But I really think, 3 months are enough and I'm planning on being back soon.

I have lots of stuff to tell you about - from my Japan vacation over some Renai stuff to new Lolita things and a little show I'm part of. I don't know where to start yet, so I have to figure that out first. Then, I think around the weekend, I'll be back with a new entry.

Maybe in the meantime, you'd like to check out my other two blogs - I have one for recipes and one in German only (currently only about books, I've read, but that's going to change too...)

 

So yeah... stay tuned! =)

New Year's resolutions

2012 is here! Am I happy? Not so sure 'bout that... Time is flying by and every new year, means one less for me...
Who cares, it's not like I can do anything about it!!

Do you made any pledges? I think New Year is the best time to start being the person you want to be. Maybe start a new hobby or set a goal or working on your character. In my opinion, people, who think they've build a good enough self, are just lazy or plain stupid!

Anyway, what are my resolutions?

01. Meet new people and make new friends! No, I don't mean to exchange my current friends, but in 2011 I've learned, that there is nothing more important than connections! Whenever you need something, it's best to know someone, "who can help you with it." Like why not meet people from all over the world or many different jobs?? Maybe someday you'll need a great lawyer and you're lucky and have one in your friend list? Who knows?

02. Sell a book. Sounds weird, but that's basically it. This year, for the mother of God, I'm going to finish a book and hopefully find a publisher. I know I can do it and I will do it! Even bought a net book and build some free periods in my schedule, so I'll work.
Damn it! I want something, I can be proud of!!!
Lots of people tell me, I've already reached a lot ... Got good A-levels, got into university, had a stay abroad, seen a big part of the world, founded an awesome group and fought my demons.
But is it enough? I don't feel it is, there gotta be more.

03. Survive the first semester and find some joy in studying. Currently it's not that clear. I kinda like going to college, but I'm not used to all the work, that I awaits me at home. I can't wait for next semester, cause then I'll finally learn something about New History ... Bye Bye Middle Ages!!

04. Bring Renai Revolution to a new level. 2011 was really good for us. I don't think many showgroups manage it to get a sponsor, appear in a magazine and have several performances in their debut year. 2012 will be even better, because we'll have more magazine appearances, make a CD and try to knock on some big doors.
Hopefully, we can get some more fans, that'll be great!!

05. Don't gain any weight. Most people try to loose weight, but I'm happy as long as I don't gain it! Sometimes holding your weight can be a challenge as well.

06. Read a lot more. Last year I've read only a few books, I'm a little sad.

07. Go out more often! I really like to meet my friends more often, but I'm so tired of always being the one, who asks them out. So maybe this year, why don't you invite me from time to time?

08. Go to Japan. Actually something I've wanted to achieve last year ... and I was so close, already had the tickets... but then ... oh my. Well this year is the year!

09. Wear Lolita more often and get some new things. Yeah ... explains itself, right?

10. Do something about that sleeping problem...

I think, that's enough for now. Wow, 10 pledes, I hope I can fulfill them! I'm going to do my best.

TOEFL test

Today I took the very famous Test Of English a Foreign Language. Nowadays it being able to speak a language and that very well doesn't mean you actually speak the language. No, you need a certificat, that you've paid like 200 bugs for, then and not till then you are officially declared of being able to speak English! Well alright, you gotta pass the test, too...

So, I've registered for the TOEFL in November of last year, told myself how easy it would be for me, since my English is just slamming but today I didn't feel that safe anymore. What if they used super complicated vocabulary or ask grammar questions? I'm so not able to handle that!
When we walked in the testing room - everyone on its on like it's the final curtain - I stared at my desktop (yes, it's a computer based test ... no one actually uses pencils anymore. we should safe them up for times when coal gets rare), waiting.
Then it started. Was it difficult? Yes. Did I panic? I don't think so. Every text was a non fictional text, mostly about biology or history. Understand wasn't a problem at all but sometimes the answers didn't fit the question. While talking with some of the others, they could just manage it to tell me how it sucked, during their gasps but I don't know ... it was hard, but alright! You wanna study in the US or GB? Well you gotta understand those texts, right?

I have to wait two weeks for the results ... I hope I passed 80 points, that was my goal.

Fantasy ga Hajimaru

I won't start with the typical "Hi, my name is ..." like most of the others do.
Let's be honest. Starting a blog, finding a title and writing the first entry is hard work. Well, maybe starting a blog isn't, but everything else, if you want to be creative, sure is.
I hate titles. I really do. They have to be smart, catchy, maybe funny or mysterious, but as soon as people think you're stupid as bread, they'll never come back and good bye to your bright blogger career.
So, what does Resonant Blue stand for? Besides it is a song title from my favourite group, I really like the idea of sound and vision, combined to a great experience. I'm sorry to those, thinking I'm going to blog about my lovely Morning Musume all day and night, because it's not my intention. Go ahead, find yourself a JPop blog, I'm fine with it. Of course sometimes I'm going to talk about them, since they're a big part of my life, despite the fact I've passed 14 a long time ago. You can still love music, right?
By the way, this post's title is a Morning Musume song, too... I just hate thinking of titles. Luckily my parents don't think that way or I would be the nameless girl...

This is not my first blog. It's actually the third one. Only one of the others is still active and it wouldn't be a lot fun to you, since it's mainly in Japanese and quite dull. Some time ago I've lost interest in blogging, but today I've watched the movie Julie & Julia (which is great by the way) and I was reminded, why I startet in first place.
So I was thinking ... I'm not interested in looking back on my first blog, it's been almost 4 years and I've become a different person. I really like the idea of having a project like in the movie. Since I'm a passionated chef myself, cooking is an obvious idea, but it has been done and I'm lacking persistence. I'm not quite sure, what to do with this blog, but I'll figure it out! Maybe I should just talk about my life the way it is ... unspectacular. Maybe being that unspectacular makes it great!
Or maybe not.

That's what I got to find out.