New Year Resolutions

It's 2013! Time really flies. Just as everyone else, I've been eating and celebrating the holidays and made some resolutions:

1. Finish my book. You might laugh but I'm actually really close. I might finish it in January or February latest. Only a few chapters are left and I want to start correncting all the bullshit I wrote. I'm afraid it's part of the process.
2. Sports! My sport level rose during 2012 and I'm proud of that but it's still not continuous - sometimes I'm not doing anything for a whole week and then the next week I'm making sport everyday. I have to get some rhythm in that.
3. Do something about the anger. I think I have a lot of unresolved anger in me and that's why I can't stand people. We always start out nice but after a while (usually 1 1/2 to 2 years) I'm so pissed off. I just can't unsee all the little bad habbits, that everyone has. I for sure am not perfect. No one is. But it's driving me INSANE! I have to learn to take people the way they are and stay calm about it. We have to accept, what we can't change.
4. Study harder. I really have to! I made a good start during the holidays and I want to keep it that way. I hate to sit in class and  tohave no idea, what that guy is talking about. Or who he actually is. And what class am I talking exactly?
5. Keep reading, you missed it so much!
6. Work harder in Renai? I guess? I don't know, I'm already working really hard on that...
7. Keep on improving your voice. It's gonna be alright.
8. Clean your room more oft... ah... naa.... not gonna happen.
9. Eat more fibers.
10. Blog more. Like seriously. I'm not using this blog anymore and I' missing it to write in English. Lately, I'm always here: http://sweets-spirits.blogspot.de/ where I blog in German about books and food and everything that doesn't include me, posting pictures of myself. I really started hating that.

So yeah, those are my resolution and I hope I can keep a few of them... hey, I'm realistic.
Finally, I'd like to show you a flyer I made today about our next Renai Revolution concert. It's going to be a graduation special.

100th Post

Yay, this is my 100th entry on this blog! I thought I had to make it special and so I was thinking what I could write about. Nothing seemed special enough, although there were lots of things.

Renai had another live, this time near Mannheim, which is really far away from Berlin and we had to stay for the whole weekend.
Our live was quite good... why only quite? Because the monitoring was immensly loud, that none of us could hear herself singing ... meaning we were too loud or too silent or not on tone or or or ... it was really confusing. -_- We also made a lot of dancing mistaktes ... somehow the whole performance was just too weird!! Can you imagine?!

But for the evening we went to a ballroom dance. It was kinda interesting and I was really looking forward to it, because it was the first time for me. Everyone looked awesome! Let me show you some pictures! :D I must excuse, because the quality kinda sucks ... the lobby was dark and we had to use flash...

Yumi, looking stunning! She made the skirt herself.

The unhappy couple. XD I actually forced them to pose like this, but they reminded me of a prom couple!

Giny! Looking murderous as always. XD

 Daisy with another great dres!! Aww, I really want a dress like that!!!

Laureen in a cute, frilly dress.

Mina with my huge, blonde wig.^^

And me with her wig! We had a situation and didn't know what to do with our hair, so in the end, we just switched.^^




Aaaaaand today... is actually my birthday! I'm getting older and older. X.X
Yesterday was my stageplay ander after that, my friends were with my and the whole ensemble waited for me to turn older. Everybody sang for me and it was really a nice turn. I still wish, it never happened. T_T

And today I celebrated with my family. My parents, grandparents and me, we all went for lunch and we had cake aaaand I got presents... maybe I should show you some pics tomorrow.

Hanami 2012 and more

Yay!
So last week, college's 2nd semester started and this time I'm taking classes in modern history. I'm really happy. I'm learning stuff about the civil rights movement and about pirates and about Europe's international relations during the 19th century. Quite some interesting stuff. Actually, I was supposed to study this weekend (or rather not study, but carefully read some texts, because the one prof seems strict), but I just didn't do it. Instead, I was spending Saturday by doing nothing and today was Hanami.
I went there with Lau.chan and we tried to pull off Lolita for a whole day for the first time! I'm going to use pics from her blog, because I'm too lazy, to load them myself.^^""

It was Lau.chan first time to actually wear Sweet Lolita and she did a great job! She never wore the shoes before, a big headpiece and she's not a wig-person (unsolved mystery...)

I've completely dressed her up as my own little doll,^^"" but from now on, she can surely pull off Lolita herself.

Rrrrr, my petticoat was always showing, damn it! >_<
Some other Renai girl's were there, too.

Mina as maid

 

and Giny as the handicaped pokemon Teddiursa, which lost its moon...
Yumi was there too, she was being Misty from Pokemon, but we didn't take any pictures with her. >_<
At the end, I was just really tired and my feet are killing me!! But it was really fun and we were invited to a Lolita group (can you believe it, they invited us!), I've met an old friend from school (gotta write her an e-mail soon!) and people've been taking our picture all the time, so now there are quite some pictures of us circling around ... kinda weird ... but kinda awesome.

Ey Bunny!

Wie ihr vielleicht noch wisst, hatte Renai Revolution am Samstag einen Auftritt auf der LBM! Es war eine mittelschwere Katastrophe und zur Abwechslung lag das mal nicht am Auftritt sondern an den Bedingungen drum herum. Aber wir haben uns alle schon intensiv aufgeregt, ich schließe das jetzt ab und freue mich, dass Renai in seinen Lebenslauf nun eine wirklich große Convention schreiben kann. Allein dafür hat es sich gelohnt, denn möglicherweise öffnet es die Tore zu anderen Events.

Schön fand ich vor allem, wenn wir als Bunny-Rudel unterwegs waren, denn aus Gründen, die ich nicht ganz verstehe, haben die Leute uns geliebt! Wir waren nicht mal im Cosplay oder so, aber die Leute fanden uns super! Vermutlich, weil wir so viele auf einmal waren.

Sieht aber auch lustig aus! Ich mag vor allem Yumis Gesicht, zu ihr passt das Outfit echt am besten, haha. So viele Bunnies...

Des Weiteren hab ich mich mal mit einem sehr anstrengenden Tanz rausgefordert und nun fürchterlichen Muskelkater im Popo und den Schenkeln, sodass ich mit Schwerpunkt nach hinten laufe, als wär ich im 8. Monat schwanger. >_<

Aber na ja, ich muss mich ja heute eh nicht mehr viel bewegen, werde nur noch eine weitere Seite an meiner Ausarbeitung schreiben ... ist nämlich nicht mehr lange. Los! Los! Los!

Otsukarenai Auftritt

Soo, gerade war das letzte Training vor unserem Debut mit Otsukarenai.

So wie's ausschaut, wird's wohl knapp bis Samstag - wir haben uns alle mehr durchgeruckelt: schauspielerisch, ablauftechnisch, gesanglich. Ich hab irgendwann aufgehört zu zählen, wie oft ich mich versungen hab ... sogar meine Ballade, die ich eigentlich ziemlich gut kann, war eine mittelschwere Katastrophe. Mangelnde Selbstsicherheit? Möglich wärs.  Ich hoffe, ich krieg's Samstag hin, ich wollte es meiner Mama widmen. Die fragt mich nämlich schon seit einer halben Ewigkeit, ob ich ihr das mal als Klingelton einstellen kann, tsass.^^

Aber irgendwie ist das oft so ... das erste Mal ist immer Aufregung, weil davor nichts klappt!!! Geht das überhaupt anders? Ich kenn es auf jeden Fall nur so.

Wir werden Freitag nochmal intensiv arbeiten und schauen, was wir machen können. Aber wir treten auf jeden Fall auf, also macht euch da mal keine Sorgen!^^

Das Gute an Renai ist nämlich, dass wir unser Programm beliebig zusammenstellen können und nicht an eine feste Struktur gebunden sind, wie manch andere Gruppe. Das hat seine Vorteile,jaja.

Ich hab übrigens mal durchgezählt. Der nächste stressfreie Tag für mich wird der Sonntag! Yay! Na dann. T_T

A few days ago, I've bought something from the lovely (but lil' pricey) shop Strapyaworld! And because I WANTED TO HAVE IT REALLY BADLY, I've used EMS - that's super fast shipping.

Here's, what I've got!

Super squishy Hello Kitty macaron. My mom already grapped it for herself, ah well. I know where it is, when I need it.

Another squishy thing - a Nigiri Sushi! It looks so delicious! ><

Hello Kitty Donut! It's sooo pretty and big. In the past, I didn't like squishy danglers at all. But lately, I've grown to like them a lot and so I bought three!

Cute Minnie Mouse dangler. I'm really happy with it. I've wanted the cupcake or the chocolate!

Aaaand Mickey, of course! I've actually wanted the pretzel, but the smoothie would have been my second choice.^^

Another Mickey, but in the shape of a candied apple. It looks actually kinda real, if it wasn't that tiny. oO I always feel like biting it.

An ichigo daifuku aaaaand last but not least, I've got this:

It's a kit for making cute Pocky! I can't wait to try it out.


Another topic! Yesterday was the last performance of Renai tte NANI?! and it was really good! Well, we had some mistakes in form of organisation, but singing and dancing went really well. We sang really well! From next month on, we're going to tour with Otsukarenai! The World May End 2012! This Group Won't!

You can watch the videos on our channel, here's the first one:

Aiyaiyai

Sorry guys! Currently, I don't have any time for blogging!

There is so much stuff going on, not only with university and music, but also in my life. It's been really crazy and I've got to know many new things, that I have to think about before I can share them with anyone else.

Anyway ... tomorrow Renai Revolution will have a concert at Ongaku Matsuri! I've just practiced and I made some mistakes. Damn it, I AM SO NERVOUS!!! Haaa ... wish me luck.

Going to the movies now.><

New Year's resolutions

2012 is here! Am I happy? Not so sure 'bout that... Time is flying by and every new year, means one less for me...
Who cares, it's not like I can do anything about it!!

Do you made any pledges? I think New Year is the best time to start being the person you want to be. Maybe start a new hobby or set a goal or working on your character. In my opinion, people, who think they've build a good enough self, are just lazy or plain stupid!

Anyway, what are my resolutions?

01. Meet new people and make new friends! No, I don't mean to exchange my current friends, but in 2011 I've learned, that there is nothing more important than connections! Whenever you need something, it's best to know someone, "who can help you with it." Like why not meet people from all over the world or many different jobs?? Maybe someday you'll need a great lawyer and you're lucky and have one in your friend list? Who knows?

02. Sell a book. Sounds weird, but that's basically it. This year, for the mother of God, I'm going to finish a book and hopefully find a publisher. I know I can do it and I will do it! Even bought a net book and build some free periods in my schedule, so I'll work.
Damn it! I want something, I can be proud of!!!
Lots of people tell me, I've already reached a lot ... Got good A-levels, got into university, had a stay abroad, seen a big part of the world, founded an awesome group and fought my demons.
But is it enough? I don't feel it is, there gotta be more.

03. Survive the first semester and find some joy in studying. Currently it's not that clear. I kinda like going to college, but I'm not used to all the work, that I awaits me at home. I can't wait for next semester, cause then I'll finally learn something about New History ... Bye Bye Middle Ages!!

04. Bring Renai Revolution to a new level. 2011 was really good for us. I don't think many showgroups manage it to get a sponsor, appear in a magazine and have several performances in their debut year. 2012 will be even better, because we'll have more magazine appearances, make a CD and try to knock on some big doors.
Hopefully, we can get some more fans, that'll be great!!

05. Don't gain any weight. Most people try to loose weight, but I'm happy as long as I don't gain it! Sometimes holding your weight can be a challenge as well.

06. Read a lot more. Last year I've read only a few books, I'm a little sad.

07. Go out more often! I really like to meet my friends more often, but I'm so tired of always being the one, who asks them out. So maybe this year, why don't you invite me from time to time?

08. Go to Japan. Actually something I've wanted to achieve last year ... and I was so close, already had the tickets... but then ... oh my. Well this year is the year!

09. Wear Lolita more often and get some new things. Yeah ... explains itself, right?

10. Do something about that sleeping problem...

I think, that's enough for now. Wow, 10 pledes, I hope I can fulfill them! I'm going to do my best.

University Start and KONEKO

As I've told you before, Monday was my very first university day.

The last two days were so damn exhausting, I haven't had any time to blog - all my freetime went to creating a schedule, finding the right paths and not losing my mind.

It's SO confusing ... when I'm looking at the past two days, I just want to quit the shit ... but whatelse should I do?? I have to get a grip of my life, right? Can't keep on being a baby forever... damn it. T_T

So on Monday, I went to the first events, where they welcome you, give you some presents (a fancy fabric bag and other stuff) and try to take your fears ... which they really suck at.
Then, right afterwards, I had my first actvities in history, met some new people and a girl I hang out with the day ... sometimes I can't believe how easy it is to get to know people ... or maybe that's just me.

They tried to explain the schedule to us ... in German universities, for most subjects, you have to create you own schedule from scratch. Some (like physics or buisness studies) get finished schedules but I didn't. I have to check what I can do and check my study points and what to do when and how much of it and get signaturs and yeah, basically I hate everything about it. Maybe studying wasn't the right thing to do after all.

Well, I'm going to hang on for at least one year and if I'm still hating it, I have to look for something else to do with my life.

But now to something nice!!!

Today was the release of Koneko, a European magazine, that me and my group Renai Revolution are in! I've already bought it haha.

Bitte kauft euch die Koneko! Damit unterstützt ihr nicht nur Renai Revolution, ihr habt auch die Chance, bis zu 3 Kleider zu gewinnen!
Andernfalls, geht einfach auf diesen Link, dort erfahrt ihr auch die Teilnahmebedinungen:

http://girls.subarashi.de/2011/10/koneko-subarashi-gewinnspiel-sexy-boy/

I also got a book, I've ordered a while ago!

I'm really happy about it, because Aoki Misako is really one of my favourite Lolita models!
Unfortunately my friend Laureen received the same book shortly after and I could have borrowed it! T_T

Renai Birthday and University fears

As I've told you before, on Thursday was my group's birthday and yesterday we all went to celebrate.
Well ... sadly not all, two couldn't make it.

Gena, Laureen and I went together, because we've spend the afternoon with sewing ... or rather Gena, who actually knows what she's doing, tried to beat some skills into us ... sorry for being bothersome!

Like last year, we went to Ishin restaurant, because it's good and not too expensive!
Haaa... and it was GOOD!

All in all, we were Gena, Giny, Nikki, Mina, Laureen and I. Nice group of 6 people.


But a bigger problem is on its way. Tomorrow I'm enrolling in university and I'm really scared!!
Not if people will be nice and such.

I'm continuously asking myself: "Was it the right decision?" "Should I've chosen an apprenticeship?" "Am I studying the right subjects?" "Can I handle the work?" "Can I make it in 3 years?" "Do I actually know how to learn after over 3 years?" "Will I be successfull?" "Am I ruining my damn life?!"

I am so scared ... I've had so much time and still I can't believe, it's already tomorrow. Time really flies in the blink of an eye.

I hope, I can finally be happy...

Happy Birthday Renai Revolution!

Today is a very happy day for me, because on this very day two years ago, my group Renai Revolution came to life!

Over the years, we had some troubles (big time!), but everything turned out to be fine.

We really had to work for what we've achieved and I guess, that's something good, because we'll never forget what we've been through and that we should be humble.

So yatta~~~ to another great year.

Haha, I know I went a little over the top with the cake and the candles, but I am SO HAPPY, we made it this far ... wasn't always so sure, we'd actually reach the first anniversary...

Well, I'm happy.

And my mum actually wrote the card for me and my dad called me this morning to send wishes. It's a little weird, but I think they're happy, too, since they've seen all my suffering sometimes.

Thank you!!

Renai Revolution Concert

Yesterday Renai Revolution went to Braunschweig to attend NiSaCon#2!

Although it was a quite small convention (still practicing here...), the audience was actually excisting (not as natural as you might think) and I think they've enjoyed our program!

We left Berlin around 9am, which is quite a late time for showgroups, but it was good for us.

Everyone's still quite tired, although it's not that late as a matter of fact!
Giny and Gena came WAY too late - like 5 minutes before our train left, but they made it. If not, they would have missed the train AND the live and we would have felt the need to kick their asses really badly.
They overslept ... still can't believe it.

So of course they weren't ready with styling and such.

Oh and Gena had to finish her dance outfit, which at that time could have hold Laureen twice!

Waiting in Magdeburg, we had to switch trains.

The final hour in train to Braunschweig. Wow, I sure have a lot of inside train pictures, haven't I? But what can I say? IT'S ALL WE'VE SEEN!

Yay, we've already unpacked some neonlight! They're just so tempting ... some (drunk) guys even asked if they cold buy some from us, but sorry guys! We needed them.

Gena. All I have to say!

Leader and Sub-Leader! Picture quality is so bad, but it was SO dark, that I had to lighten in up in order to actually see something. We wanted to retake the pic, but then forgot it.

Mina's a Psyduck! We thought about who could be which Pokemon and because Mina's colour is yellow and she had a headache, she got the Enton.

I was a Jigglypuff or something like this, because my special attack is Charme.
Nikki said of herself, she would be Snorlax, but I think she'd be more of a Geodude.
And Laureen? I don't know, maybe Charmander, because she's hot?

We finally arrived Braunschweig!

Ha, a great picture! But sadly I'm not in it, because as a matter of course I'm taking it! Damn it!!!

Then, we had our performance and it was really great! Videos will be up very soon.

I think we were really great.

Everybody told me how my singing was really great and how I've improved so much, but I'm not so sure. I've listend to the recording again und I feel I'm putting too much throat in every tone. Maybe I'm to critical with myself, but I think I still have a LONG way to go until I'm a good singer.

At the end, we've split up into teams of four, because some wanted to stay a little longer and some wanted to leave. So Laureen, Mina, Nikki and I took the train home, while Yumi, Giny, Tuti and Gena stayed.

I'm very happy about the day. Our next live will be MMC in Berlin! It'll be a lot more complicated, because we won't have enough mics and have to adapt our program. Oi vey...

But I can now reveal the title of our 2012 program!!

It'll be:

Otsukarenai!