Thursday, June 30, 2011

Cool Lolita Makeup Tutorial

Another makeup tutorial video! This time it's an icy look in blue!

You'll need:
black mascara, black kohl pencil, black eyeliner, two eyeshadows in different shades of blue, one eyeshadow in white, one glimmer blue eyeshadow, white lipstick, neutral lip balm

Enjoy. :)

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Morning Musume Only You Dance

I like to show you my newest Dance Cover on Youtube! Of course, it's Morning Musume's newest single "Only You"! I really like being a Youtube Dancer but sadly, most Germans are like really unsuccessful. Why is that?
Well, who cares anyway?
どうぞ~~~

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Novels for Daydreamers

Now that summer is there it always brings some time called "vacation." Lots of people spend it in on the beach in exotic countries, climbing in the mountains, on a ranch or city cruising and that's fine with me cause I've done lots of things and seen even more countries. And I'm loving every second of it. But I also understand that sometimes you can't or don't want to travel and rather stay home. That's fine with me, too.
For those, who spend their summer at their balcony, I now introduce some great books, that will abduct you to far far away places ... depending on where you live of course.

It's a list of ten and I know for sure, there are tons and tons more books about exotic places, but I either don't think about them know or I've never read them. So if you want to share your favourtie daydreamer novels, please write a comment. :)

1. Elizabeth Gilbert - Eat, Pray, Love (Titel bleibt auf deutsch derselbe)
Thanks to Julia Roberts and several other celebrity ladies this book is well-known around the world. It's way more than esoteric sludge, it's all about pleasure. The author, who actually experienced what she's writing about, takes you to Italy, India and Indonesia. After you've read this book, you want nothing more but to hit the road.

2. Lewis Carroll - Alice's Adventures in Wonderland (Alice im Wunderland)
I know lots of people, who actually have no idea that there was a book before there was a Disney movie. That saddens me. This book takes you to the most exotic place, that exists ... your dreams. It tells of a girl named Alice who falls down a rabbit hole into a fantasy world populated by peculiar, anthropomorphic creatures.
 Often refered to as a children's book, this novel is perfect for grown-ups as well. With so much fantasy and surreal figures, time flies by. Everybody knows things like the crazy tea party, the eat-me cookies, the cheshire cat or the cricket game and this book will add a lot more to the list.

3. Dan Brown - Angels & Demons (Illuminati)
You wonder, why it's on this list? Well, I know this novel is not the most ... exotic. But it's very adventurous and while Robert Langdon is following the old path of Illuminati, you get to know Rome and the Vatican of a great perspective and writes about things, that you've never thought of. Of course it's not the most realistic, but who cares? I don't!
The plot follows Harvard symbologist Robert Langdon, as he tries to stop the Illuminati, a legendary secret society, from destroying Vatican City with the newly discovered power of antimatter.
For a great perspective of France, try "The Da Vinci Code."

4. Robert Louis Stevenson - Treasure Island (Die Schatzinsel)
I love pirate stories. I'm not sure why, but I guess it has something to do with freedom, discovering new places, seeing the world ... and of course treasuries. Again, this was ought to be a children's novel but it reached grown-ups as well. The young boy Jim Hawkins gets hold of a treasure map, goes on a ship to find it, reaches an island and in the end has to fight for the treasure and his life.
This novel influenced most of the other pirate stories, thanks to treasure maps with an X, peg legs, the Black Spot, tropical islands and of course parrots on the shoulder.

5. Arthur Golden - Memoirs of a Geisha (Die Geisha)
The novel tells the fictional story of a geisha working in Kyoto, Japan, before and after World War II. It's a touching book, that tells the story of Sayuri, who is based on the character of Mineko Iwasaki, the probably most famous Geisha of all times. By the way, because she wasn't happy with Golden's book, she wrote her own biography: "Geisha of Gion."

6. Jules Verne - Around the World in Eighty Days (Reise um die Erde in 80 Tagen)
I wasn't sure which of Jules Verne's novels I should pick, because they all have the spirit of adventure in common. But since this one has lots of different countries in it to dream about, I picked this.
In the story, Phileas Fogg and his valet Passepartout attempt to circumnavigate the world in 80 days on a £20,000 wager (equal to £1,324,289 today) set by his friends at the Reform Club.
The book was made into films several times, the most recent (and weirdest) is the one with Jackie Chan.
There were lots of lots of people, who broke the record. The first one in 1889 with 72 days.

7. Helen Fielding - Cause Celeb (Hummer zum Dinner)
Helen Fielding is best known for Bridget Jones and as much as we love her and the neverending fight against the kilos, the books aren't very daydreamy. What most people don't know, Helen Fielding wrote two other books: Olivia Joules in 2003 (which is kinda weird) and Cause Celeb in 1994 - her first novel. In this very first book of hers, her style is very different from the easy going, chatty Bridget Style. It's a lot more mature.
It's about a few years in the life of Rosie Richardson, who decides to go to Africa after she breaks up with her boyfriend, Oliver Marchant, a TV presenter. But after four years working in Nambula, a fictional country in Northern Africa, there's a famine coming and Rosie turns back to Oliver and his famous friends to get the food they desperately need.

8. Sir Arthus Conan Doyle(yes, the guy from Sherlock Holmes)- The Lost World (Die vergessene Welt)
This novel is about an expedition to a plateau in the Amazon basin of South America where prehistoric animals (dinosaurs and other extinct creatures) still survive.
I really like the descriptions of flora and fauna and the idea, that there will always be secrets in this world. What I don't like is the way the characters speak about savages and all that. But I guess it's a novel, that was published during 1912, when it was usual...

9. Laura Restrepo - The Dark Bride (Die dunkle Braut)
I'm quite sure, most of you don't know this book. I don't know for sure, but I guess it has never been a best seller. Maybe I'm wrong.
A journalist investigates a small Colombian town populated by mainly “oil riggers and the prostitutes who service them.” The journalist interviews some of the townspeople of Tora to learn about Sayonara, a well-known prostitute who is the daughter of a white man and a Guahibo Indian woman. She is in charge of La Catunga, the place where employees of the Tropical Oil Company “visit” prostitutes. Sayonara falls in love with two workers—Sacramento, whom she loves only as a brother, and Payanes as a lover. However, Payanes is married and Sacramento wants to save Sayonara from prostitution
This is the gentle and life-affirming story about love, jealousy, poverty, justice and hope.

10. Karl May - like... everything (ja ... alles eben :) )
I was really trying to find the book, that fits best in this topic, but every single one of Karl May's stories is a piece of wonder. He wrote about countries, that he had never seen, thought of wild adventures and traveled the world. His best known works may be Winnetou and Old Shatterhand, but he also wrote a lot of different novels, set in the Middle east and the Orient, China and South America. You should really read one of his books if you haven't yet.

Well, that's my short list, I hope you enjoyed it!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Sweet Lolita Tutorial: Colorful Pop Makeup

Sooo, I've made a video, where you can learn how to get the colorful bonbon look for Lolita. It's a very bright and cute eye shadow look, that is perfect for people, who want to highlight their eyes, not darken them like the all time favourite but sometimes depressing smokey eyes.

What you need for this sweet Lolita bonbon look:
Two strong eyeshadows in turquoise and yellow, a black mascara, a black kohl pencil, a pink precision eyeliner, an applicator and an eye shadow brush.
Learn how to apply the makeup here:

Monday, June 20, 2011

Tokyo Style Check: July 2011

July (and midsummer) are rapidly approaching. Time to check what people might be wearing on the streets of Tokyo!

60s are back! Whether you like the easygoing Hippie style or the girly Student style, plaincolored is a must!
If you want some colorful eyecatcher you can add pattern accessories, but always in combination with muted colors! Blue is a great color this summer.



When it comes to skirts and dresses, there are good news for people, who don't like their legs! Long skirts are hip this summer (do people actually say hip ... maybe I'm not hip anymore?oO) ! They're great to slim strong legs!



For shoes: Sandals. Girly or casual, but alway high-heeled!



Bags with big prints are also great accessories! Dots, patterns, texts ... just BIG!



Finally it's summer. And summer means festivals! Festivals mean Yukata! Flower prints are an all-time favourite.



I hope, you liked it and maybe got some helpful tipps?
Please tell me, what are your trend for July?

Friday, June 17, 2011

My Depression: Psychosomatic Dysfunction [Meine Depression]

Lately, I'm suffering from some really bad days. I guess all of you know it, when people in movies say about their relatives "Well, there are good days and bad days." I'm having some very bad days.

I'm having a psychosomatic dysfunction. That means, whenever my soul or mind are burdened, my body is carrying the fight. Not because I'm doing this to me, it just happens. I can't sleep, I'm feeling queasy, I'm losing orientation, I'm having hallucinations. I'm literally getting sick, "just" because there's something my psych can't handle.
When I'm gone, I don't like myself. Not because I deserve it, but because I take everything from outside to my heart. I feel alone, because noone understands me, noone shares my thought, noone actually tries to feel me. I feel like crying, sob and suffer, and suddenly it's gone. I feel nothing but misunderstanding about myself. Until I feel wild sadness again.
And you go through all that happend during the last days but nothing actually explains, why you're feeling wild sadness or anger. You just cry out of nothing, so long until your tears are dried and there is only one clear emotion, that seems to kick you through your back right in your eyes.
I don't sit in my dark room and listen to metal. I usually wander around my aparment, desperatly searching for something to do, but nothing helps for long. I like sitting on the balcony. Don't ask me why, I just do. Maybe it's the air. It helps, because I feel tired all the time. Like I've run a marathon.
When life makes no sense, leaving seems like the only solution. It's not happening very often. But when it happens it strikes very hard.
Most times I'm not unhappy. But I'm not happy as well. It just feels like something needs to happen. It always feels like something is missing and I don't know what it is.
I'm getting help, but of course it needs time.

Why am I writing about this? Beyond my troubles, I'm a a very confident person. I can speak and talk about my state and handle the looks. I'm not insane and I don't feel like I need to be pitied in any way. You might wonder, but I don't think everyone should go around, telling everybody if they're ill or being in therapy. If you can't handle the looks, you'll get sometimes, the pity and the obligatory dialogue:

"But you're better now?"
"No. Working on it."
"Hm ... good luck with that." And than trying to change the subject.

If you can't handle this, you shouldn't tell people. It's your decision!

Don't get me wrong! I'm not like: "Oh, nice to meet you! By the way, I'm having a dysfunction!" I'm sure it'll be a conversation starter, but still ... when it comes to topic, I'll talk about it normally, but I don't need to throw it on people.

The reason I am like I am is really strange and I guess I'm quite unique with it and I don't need to share it here.
But I'm still here. 2 years later I'm still here. And that's a point, that wasn't always so sure. I'm happy about it, even when I'm having bad days.

I'm sharing my thoughts, because I know there are lots of people like me. Who don't know theirselves anymore. Strong, independet people, who just sometimes want to crawl in their bed and hope the world will forget about them. People, you would never think to be like that.

Don't listen to: "Get it together."
They don't understand, that getting it together is nothing else but pushing it down.

Don't listen to : "You gotta go out! Meet people!"
They don't understand. They think you're not feeling well,  because you're not going out. They don't understand you're not going out, because you're not feeling well. Yes, there's a difference.

Don't listen to: "Think about something nice."
They don't understand, that sometimes you can't remember about the last nice thing that happened.

Don't listen to: "All you need is time."
Sometimes you need help, you'll get over your thoughts on your own. Or you'll die.

Don't blame yourself. It's not your fault.
Not doing anything is.

It gets better with time!
And I know most of you don't like to hear it, because you ask yourself how long you have to wait until there's a solution. I still ask myself from time to time.

I'm not very good with words, but you gotta try. Sometimes it's going to be hard and sometimes you'll lose courage.

As long as you live, it's alright.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Nanchatte Renai Classic Lolita

I know, I said I'm not a lolita just a few posts ago. And I'm not! Just sometimes ... for work. I don't claim to be a lolita, but I love to dress up in antique style ... maybe because I have some wide hips, which are concealed by the rococo style.

This is the most recent dress:




I really love the Morning Musume kinda Nanchatte Renai vibe. It's not the most practical dress, but it looks so great with few efforts.



I'm not going to wear it too often though. It's just not very comfortable ... too bad!

What do you think?

I actually like classic lolita best, but I also LOVE sweet lolita. Sadly, I feel I'm too tall for the last one. Still, dressing up is fun.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

On Stranger Tides

Thanks to my Renai friends, I was able to take the day off from rehearsal, for the first time this year. Because of that I had the chance to FINALLY go to the movies with my mother ... for the first time this year.

We had no big choice ... we could only go at 4pm and "Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides" was the only possible movie.
What can I say? I love pirate stories, so this movie has a little average on me. The duo of Johnny Depp and Geoffrey Rush is also excellent and yes, there are lots of beautiful, beautiful people in this movie. But that's basically it. The story is just WEIRD! No one told this director the magic of shortening. Everytime someone's running, fighting or jumping through the air, so it's all really hectic. Penelope Cruz, usually one of the most fiery women ever, pacts like she's thinking what to have for lunch. And finally, there's this weird side story about the love between a mermaid and this missionary, which was nothing but dispensable. Seriously, what was it for? To show some loving between a not-so-hot Orlando and a not-so-talented (but in my opinion VERY gorgeous) Keira? I don't even know their names.
Sadly, Johnny and Geoffrey are giving their best, but they just can't save this movie.

In conclusion, it's not bad, not good ... just quite alright ... but please no 5th Pirates of the Caribbean ...

Monday, June 13, 2011

Lolita Secrets

A few days ago, I wrote about the website Gyaru Secrets, that bashes gals and asked, if there were similiar sites.
There are.

Today I've found Lolita Secrets, which is basically the same sites, just that they're bashing Lolitas not gals. Easy, huh?

So, apparently there are 6 rules:

1. You're not allowed to have a boyfriend.
2. You're not allowed to buy from bodyline
3. You're not allowed to go to the toilet in Lolita (excuse me?!)
4. You're not allowed to wear anything cheap or handmade, only brand like Angelic Pretty.
5. You're not allowed to be chubby. (They all have this rule ... maybe except for, I don't know, Sumo Secrets?)
6. You're not allowed to be OTT (over the top).

Not so easy, huh? What can I say? To me, most of it is sorta bs... maybe it's because I was born as a girl, who actually has to work for money, but I hate the rule, that you can't wear low price or handmade stuff. Angelic Pretty and all that stuff costs a FORTUNE. Call me cheap, but I wan't to like eat on a daily basis, instead of having cute dresses.

I don't understand rules for fashion at all. Fashion is supposed to be fun. It's all about showing your personality, creativity and beauty ... but buying all the same dresses, wigs, accessories, that just makes you a lemming.
You like bodyline? Just go ahead and shop there ... having a bodyline dress won't make you any less intelligent or cute or wonderful in character. In just makes you someone, who knows how to prioritize (like thinking a little further than the next 2 months, when you might need money).

I don't claim to be a Lolita ... I'm just working as a model (it's so great and I love it so much, thank you boss), but I'm not hardcore. So maybe I'm not the right person to write about this. But still I'm intelligent enough to realize when something goes very wrong...

Monday, June 6, 2011

Don Xuan Berlin

Heute mal auf Deutsch, weil immer mal was Neues und so, ne? Vielleicht schreib ich ja morgen in dem bisschen Französisch, was ich zusammenkrieg, mal schaun.

Schon eine Weile kenne ich den Don Xuan Laden in Berlin Lichtenberg, der sowas wie Little Vietnam ist, nur miefiger ... naja, ich war noch nie in Vietnam, deswegen glaub ich das einfach mal. In den letzten Tagen stellte sich jedoch heraus, dass ich peinlicherweise die falschen riesengroßen Lagerhallen für den Don Xuan hielt. Das ist aber auch gemein gemacht! Die liegen nur ungefähr 1-2 Kilometer auseinander an derselben großen Kreuzung. Aufgebaut sind sie auch ähnlich. Kann ja mal passieren, oder?

Bei der größten Mittagshitze machte ich mich also heute auf, den richtigen Markt zu erkunden, von dem mir immer erzählt wurde. Die Straßenbahnlinie 16 fährt bei mir direkt vor der Tür und laut bvg.de braucht man von der Haltestelle Herzbergstraße/Weißenseerweg nicht lang, denn es sind ja nur 300m. Jetzt weiß ich nicht, welcher Riese diese 300 Meter beschritten hat, aber er hat definitiv einen an der Waffel. Ich hatte das Gefühl ich laufe einen ganzen Kilometer bei brütender Hitze ... ich hätte schwören können hinter dem ein oder anderen Wärmeflackern eine Hyäne sitzen zu sehen. Nicht dass ich dadurch schneller gelaufen wäre.
Die M8 fährt hingegen direkt vor dem Eingang los.

Verfehlen kann man es jedenfalls nicht, denn ein protziges Tor; ich weiß nicht, wer da was kompensieren muss; weist auf den Eingang. Auf dem Gelände findet man 4 große Lagerhallen mit den Nummern 1, 2, 3 und (weiß der Geier wieso) 8. Ich nehme an, ich habe 4 bis 7 einfach übersehen.
Im Großen und Ganzen findet man dort drinnen Ramsch, Essen und Beautysalons. Da ich schon mal in China war, kann ich sagen, es ist ähnlich, nur haben sie hier mehr Platz, dafür aber weniger Raubkopien. Ja, es muffelt, es ist Dunkel, aber es ist ein Erlebnis. Obwohl meine Schuhe furchtbar gerieben haben (ich hab jetzt Blasen und Schriemen wie nach der Geißelung) bin ich durch alle 4 Hallen gelaufen, das soll wohl was heißen.
Gekauf hab ich nichts, außer ein paar Lebensmittel. Na ja, nächstes Mal.
Zum Schluss gab es noch einen Bubble Tea von BoBoQ (?), die tatsächlich süße Hello Kitty Deckel haben. Irgendwie ist es aber auch merkwürdig, da man, um ans Getränk zu kommen, einmal den Strohhalm mitten durch Kittys Stirn stoßen muss. Ein seltsames Gefühl. Ich hatte auch zum ersten Mal richtige Tapioca Perlen, statt Fruchtperlen und sie sind irgendwie widerlich. Sie sind glitschig, klebrig und müssen gekaut werden, statt wie andere Perlen, die schön platzen. Der Tee war jedoch lecker.
Danach ging es einfach nur zu Hause, um meine blutenden Füße zu baden.

Jetzt gewittert es, genau hier über meinem Wohnort und ich glaube, die Welt geht unter.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Wigs, wigs, wacko?!

I don't like my hair very much. It's just like that, I'm not fond of it. The colour is weird, it hasn't any volume, it's just hanging around and it's quite thin, it's getting greasy so fast. I'm a blonde, that's the only thing I like - being blonde is a great thing. I like it so much, I died my hair to be even blonder. But since I have to wash it so often (every 2,3 days) I'm too lazy to actualy style it. I love curly hair, but it's not worth my time! My styling wouldn't stay longer than any of Paris Hilton's boyfriends.

So, since I'm a model, I had to make my hair often. Very often. It's exhausting! So I've started to buy some wigs. Most people might think that's not necessary, weird, whatever. But I like it. I can try different styles without ruining my hair in some crackbrained action. So if I want to be a brunette for a day, I can!



Strange, huh? I know, why I don't have bangs, but I have to say, I like this one. I have to buy some more... It's refreshingly addicting...

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Gyaru Secrets

Lately a friend of mine told me a lot about a site called "Gyaru Secrets", so of course I had to check it out.

First of all, I am not gal and I don't want to be (because basically they're creeping me out, your hair shouldn't look like a middle class family could live in there). Plus, I'm a little chubby and I don't feel like losing like lot of pounds to look like a praying mantis. But besides that, I respect other tastes and in my opinion every one can look the way he or she likes. Who cares? Fluffy hair doesn't make you a bad person.

So I was really surprised, that Gyaru Secrets obviously doesn't share my opinion. Ignoring, that there is no secret in a open-to-everyone blog, they're really ... mean. Their national sport seems to be bashing other people. When you call yourself a gal you're free to be bashed (their words, not mine). They pick pics (haha) and tell the girls how fat or ugly they look in their opinion. Getting high by putting others down, that's only prove of low self-esteem.

My friend, who wants to be a gal without being so grim,  is not so fond of Gyaru Secrets and now scared to appear on the site.
Seriously, people are actually scared to appear on that site! It's not funny anymore! If you want a blog about fashion, you should make it a fun site, that people like to visit ... not a site that people only check to see if they've been bashed or not. Even if I'd think about being a gal, I would be to scared about the site ...

I'm curious if there are similar sites about Lolitas? Or Punk? Or Visus? Or ... well, whatever there is. Are there?

Friday, June 3, 2011

Cirno's Perfect Math Class Dance

I really like dancing and though I can't handle my time very well, I still make dance videos from time to time. Yesterday I made another one, dressed as a Lolita with my very first wig. You can watch it here:


I really like this dance. It's so cute and the voice is like a doll, the dance is easy and fun. If you like dancing you should try this out.